At any given moment I could be working on a non-fiction book, novel, screenplay, documentary, or play. Needless to say, things are hectic. My creative hemisphere has been especially fertile as of late and I get into the tailspin of lists and projects and ideas and not enough hours in the day. This is a great place to be. I like it. In my experience, what comes out of this chaos is usually a passion project. I hang out in disarray until the next big thing reveals itself to me and then onward I trek. This can be bothersome to those around me. It can be bothersome to me as well, but I know enough to know that I need to let ideas simmer. When I started writing my book last year, I had been thinking about it for about a month before I typed the first few words. If I'm really honest about it, I started thinking about writing a book of some sort back in 2011 when Husband and I were living in Park Slope and I was feeling sorry for myself but my self-loathing outweighed my desire to write so fast forward three years and a bunch of therapy later and there I was, writing my book.
Suffice it to say, I understand that the genesis of any big undertaking can show itself years before and that's why I'm okay wading through the current of ideas for books and plays and films. That being said, I still ask myself, what's next?
I heard recently that it's a good idea when you have a bunch of creative matter to start with the one project that will facilitate the rest. Meaning, start with the one that will make space, money, or time for the rest of them. That makes sense. But how do you figure out which one will generate the most space, money, or time? I don't think I have the answer. But I do wonder if the answer lies in collaboration.
What I found with writing the book is that the solitary act of creation is exhilarating and irritating. I love collaborating with other artists, combining our resources and experiences to create something none of us could have come up with on our own. But I also love being in charge. I love guiding the vision and knowing that what I want to be said is going to be said. I think then the key, at least for me and people like me, is to find your tribe. Find the people you can sync up with and then float down the creative river with ease. Find the people who share your common language or the ones with whom you can create a whole new vocabulary. This creative tribe, this epic family of sorts, is where the answer to what's next? lies. I think. For me.
Or I'll go back to the drawing board tomorrow and write a brand new book. Either one.